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all i ask is that u read this blog...

... or ELSE ????

03/04/26 - 09:12 pM

what is movement

new year new stink

every time i make music i get done and the only thing i feel is "the fuck have i been doin 4 the last hour". i dunno what to do about it really. just got the urge to write. i've actually been writing quite a lot recently, just not music. i got a couple writing assignments for school, two screenplays, one i wanna turn into a comic, the other im turning in2 a shortfilm. on top of that, i've also started writing a short story? novel? idk, it was gonna be a story ala johnny mnemonic, but I think I've decided to make it longer. and i've also begun another actual short story connected to it which I will probably chip away at for the next 50 years , woohoo

it feels good to write and not feel the same forces that push on me when i'm writing music. it's become a deeply cryptic and almost an occult process for me. i write phrases and ideas, some 1 dimensional and obvious, others a concoction of word salad that resonates with me. only after fully committing to an idea, creating a full work, do i often gain hindsight about the message. i often learn things about myself through this process, and it is one of the biggest positives about the artform to me. However, that doesn't mean jack shit when you can't even finish a demo. I'm stuck replaying the same songs i've had on my phone for years, tunes im completely numb to. i've got too much music, i just can't stand it. that's hyperbole, i really like it, i just never lose that desire to continue creating. like the rush of creative entropy cannot stop or ill die and we all die too.

ig its just a product of how close i tie music to myself specifically as an art form, it really has become a part of who i am, lotta times for the worse. just in the way i go about my life, feel about myself whenever i am not pursuing that passion. it's like it's the only thing that matters sometimes and the other stuff is side quests, but half the time i don't even think i wanna make music. not that i wanna quit, i just think i forget why i wanna. anyways, i wanna start making movies and tell stories in other ways i think. i absolutely love screenwriting, and writing in general. words r dope. idk what i even wanna do rn, im just glad i got this out.

no cool pics this time, think ill get back to that soon tho. i wanna make some visual art. im gonna type more on here i think, it's cheaper than therapy.

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12/10/25 - 12:47 AM

metamorphosis

i had to google how to spell that too

Watching outtakes of the 1978 incredible hulk rn. bill bigsby was just kissin everyone and effin n jeffin about like a right bastard. love the guy and love this series.

new mixtape out 12/12!!!!

here's the last single, coin slot w/ atlas!!! check it ^_^.

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07/29/25 - 11:49 AM - oops...

synchronicity

i had to google how to spell that.

ive been wading thru oceans of mucky messes and exhaustion, while simultaneously experiencing infinite n half glimmering sparks of inspiration and joy for art. i did not intent to get on this road when i started working on this record. i didnt even know what i was doing, and so much has changed since then. its just a strange challenge holding onto that while you keep driving forward.

it's kinda nuts to me that its 3 months ago on the day it kinda fuckin freaked me when i noticed lmao. i feel like i've encountered more synchronicities in the past week than i've felt in eons. i'm almost done with this record i think. i promise. just gotta wrap this anti-matter bomb into a conceivable bow. this is a sound that makes so much sense to me. like it's just something i can totally immerse myself in and not really give a fuck abt anything else. its just the loud sounds, it's tight. ight sry got distracted with ghost in the shell. imma go play undertale w caleb now. peace.

in the meantime... i dropped a new record w the homie krwyn , something we put so much effort into. i suck at promo bc 4 some reason i think this is the best place to push it. this shit is so tight. thats all i think about it really. go listen.

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04/29/25 - 11:49 AM - oops...

been a while...

album's almost done, but i think i need to really dial in what i want it to say. so maybe i'll be more active on here. finals are kicking my ass and all i care about is music. i had a pretty dope 4/20 too. i really gotta figure out how to turn the opacity down on this gif.

i just wanted to say hi to the void. glad no one is speaking back, that'd b weird.

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02/20/25 - 12:59 AM -

just a piece im working on.

my head's hurt all day. i need to get better with time management skills! ive hardly made art in the past week, it sucks. i thought i'd have more to say but i think my melatonin's beginning to kick in.

have a good night u ppl :3 hopefully i will b out of hell soon and can get back 2 my chaos ^-%

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02/2/25 - 4:09 AM - a master sea girl

this is a pretentious one, ill make up 4 it dw.

i really hate writing sometimes. cant stand it. it still has the same cathartic element, but it's just such a hurdle. its goes from the creative frutiful flow of thoughts feelings and ideas to the ripping of yarn from the core of my soul, releasing copious amounts of chaos energies. it's painful and hectic and great when it works but when i cant get it a grip im left tugging at strings that lead nowhere.

i cut my hair too short and i want to sob every time i see an old picture. manifesting growth of my hair on my 2025 bingo card. i'm quite crossed, really feeling the rut.

so i've started drawing. a friend told me if i wanna draw i just have 2 draw. hopefully this wll maybe help the music come out easier in some roundabout way. unclogging the pipe via another artform or something. i really gotta finish this album.

the joints on this record really accurately detail this constant drive i feel. a perpetual need to move. i'm hoping getting it out will help me slow down. fuck runnin. been listening to el-p and ome chat a lot and it's really hitting me. i gotta go 2 bed.

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01/29/25 - 1:40 AM - Dactylochlamys

ft my bestie rudy

I have 2 write a speech 4 class. so im writing a blog. lolz. hru guys this morning ^_^. a new piece attached. working on a lot of music. my best i think. ik im always sayin that but im just doing so my way now. tbh it's all my friend's faults so fuck u guys :3. i still dont really get why i dont sleep. it's weird. maybe it's just habit at this point #_% .

anyways, my music. im reallly feelin that feelin where the music i have out is just an improper reflection of who i am as an artist. i have an astonishing amount on the backlog tbh, there's just been a lot in the works. new two blokes is sounding cooler than i coulda imagined, ive got my solo produced project + another , many many loosies, n i've been sending out beats 2 all who can ,,,,, bea 4 real !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im gonna go 2 bed. ill finish this speech in the morning. stay luv. peace 2 all :3

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01/28/25 - Cat Ipsum -

Good morning ^_^ very bored today,,, even tho it's only like 9 am. Classes r gonna take way 2 long today... hope u all r keepin it wonderful

Head nudges eat my own ears. Hey! you there, with the hands why can't i catch that stupid red dot, shed everywhere shed everywhere stretching attack your ankles chase the red dot, hairball run catnip eat the grass sniff, or roll over and sun my belly curl up and sleep on the freshly laundered towels.